{"id":380,"date":"2019-12-12T12:49:12","date_gmt":"2019-12-12T11:49:12","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/?p=380"},"modified":"2022-07-27T17:39:41","modified_gmt":"2022-07-27T15:39:41","slug":"tobedopis-sobedopis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/2019\/12\/12\/tobedopis-sobedopis\/","title":{"rendered":"Tob\u011bdopis? Sob\u011bdopis"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Znova se bud\u00ed\u0161. Vst\u00e1v\u00e1m. Us\u00edn\u00e1\u0161. Nesp\u00edm. Moje mil\u00e1 mal\u00e1. <!--more--><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-392\" src=\"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/ponocny-172x300.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"172\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/ponocny-172x300.png 172w, https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/ponocny-768x1342.png 768w, https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/ponocny-586x1024.png 586w, https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/12\/ponocny.png 1164w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 172px) 100vw, 172px\" \/>P\u0159ed rokem a p\u016fl jsem zap\u00e1len\u011b t\u0159\u00eddila my\u0161lenky na v\u00fdslednou podobu tohohle sd\u00edlec\u00edho m\u00edsta. S Tebou mrskaj\u00edc\u00ed se v tom obrovsk\u00e9m b\u0159i\u0161e, kter\u00fd u\u017e jsem sotva s sebou vlekla. P\u0159esto jsi mi pumpovala d\u00e1vky energie p\u0159\u00edmo do ob\u011bhu (\u0161koda holka, \u017ee jsme si neud\u011blaly z\u00e1soby. Te\u010f mus\u00edm &#8222;vyr\u00e1b\u011bt&#8220; sama). Ho\u0159ela jsem nedo\u010dkavost\u00ed, a\u017e vyp\u00edsmenkuju, co m\u00e1m na srdci, zat\u00edmco ses spokojen\u011b dop\u00e9kala p\u0159\u00edmo pod n\u00edm.<\/p>\n<p>Kdyby mi n\u011bkdo p\u0159ed p\u00e1r lety v\u011b\u0161til, \u017ee se mi b\u011bhem p\u011bti let narod\u00ed t\u0159et\u00ed dcera, nepova\u017eovala bych to za mo\u017en\u00fd. Nato\u017e pravd\u011bpodobn\u00fd. Kdyby mi n\u011bkdo, dva roky p\u0159ed Tv\u00fdm narozen\u00edm, \u0159ekl, \u017ee m\u00e1m p\u0159ed sebou je\u0161t\u011b t\u0159et\u00ed t\u011bhotenstv\u00ed, zabalila bych to rovnou. A\u017e do takov\u00e9 hlubiny m\u011b to druh\u00e9 dostalo. Nevzdala jsem to tenkr\u00e1t jen proto, \u017ee jsem doufala a v\u011b\u0159ila v p\u0159echodnost stavu. A pr\u00e1v\u011b nad\u011bje a tahle zku\u0161enost mi daly obrovskou s\u00edlu do v\u0161eho, co od t\u00e9 doby a\u017e do dne\u0161ka n\u00e1sledovalo. I Ty to v sob\u011b m\u00e1\u0161. V\u0161ichni ji m\u00e1me. S\u00edlu se st\u0159\u00eddavou intenzitou, (u m\u011b aktu\u00e1ln\u011b dle koeficientu nevysp\u00e1n\u00ed).<\/p>\n<p>P\u0159edstavovala jsem si to d\u00e1l trochu jinak, to se p\u0159izn\u00e1m. S p\u0159ib\u00fdvaj\u00edc\u00edm po\u010dtem d\u011bt\u00ed v dom\u011b se, slovy Tv\u00e9ho tat\u00ednka, nemno\u017e\u00ed situace k \u0159e\u0161en\u00ed p\u0159\u00edmo \u00fam\u011brn\u011b, ale exponenci\u00e1ln\u011b. Myslela jsem si, \u017ee u\u017e m\u011b kde co nep\u0159ekvap\u00ed. T\u0159eba vytrvalost d\u011btsk\u00e9ho pl\u00e1\u010de pro bolav\u00e9 b\u0159\u00ed\u0161ko. \u017de u\u017e p\u0159ece pozn\u00e1m rostouc\u00ed zub. \u017de u\u017e m\u00e1m dost zku\u0161enost\u00ed, abys prospala celou noc. A my taky.<\/p>\n<p>Ha. Jen\u017ee jsem zapomn\u011bla na n\u011bco moc d\u016fle\u017eit\u00fdho. \u017de pro Tebe je tohle v\u0161echno poprv\u00e9. Neb\u00fdt Tebe, neprohl\u00eddla bych si svou vnit\u0159n\u00ed s\u00edlu tak zbl\u00edzka, a nezjistila bych, \u017ee o ni mus\u00edm pe\u010dovat. Neposunula bych sv\u00e9 mantinely za hranice sv\u00fdch hranic. A dost mo\u017en\u00e1 bych jela d\u00e1l v kolej\u00edch vyjet\u00fdch generacemi na\u0161ich spole\u010dn\u00fdch p\u0159edk\u016f.<\/p>\n<p>Moje mil\u00e1. Nikdy si nenech namluvit, \u017ee kdokoliv by mohl v\u011bd\u011bt l\u00e9pe ne\u017e Ty, kdo jsi a co je pro Tebe dobr\u00fd. I Tv\u00e1 m\u00e1ma se po\u0159\u00e1d je\u0161t\u011b u\u010d\u00ed na to nezapom\u00ednat. Inspiruj se p\u0159\u00edb\u011bhy druh\u00fdch a dej si pozor na slep\u00e9 p\u0159ej\u00edm\u00e1n\u00ed ciz\u00edch n\u00e1zor\u016f. O n\u00e1vyc\u00edch pochybuj a pochybnost\u00ed o sob\u011b u\u017e\u00edvej ve st\u0159\u00edzliv\u00e9 m\u00ed\u0159e k hled\u00e1n\u00ed sv\u00e9 vlastn\u00ed cesty. Je to Tvoje \u017eivotn\u00ed skl\u00e1da\u010dka. Pros\u00edm, sna\u017e se, aby i druz\u00ed m\u011bli tu mo\u017enost, poskl\u00e1dat se podle sebe. Nesu\u010f a m\u011bj r\u00e1da \u017eivot takov\u00fd, jak\u00fd je, v\u011bdoma si jeho pom\u00edjivosti. A jak\u00fd bude, to z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed hodn\u011b na Tob\u011b&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><strong>Mo\u017en\u00e1 m\u00e1\u0161 je\u0161t\u011b des\u00edtky tis\u00edc dn\u00ed tvorby p\u0159ed sebou. J\u00e1 u\u017e asi m\u00ed\u0148. Ale ono to nakonec bude jedno. Z\u00e1le\u017e\u00ed na tom, jak\u00e9 ty dny jsou a ne kolik jich je.<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Jak mi rostete p\u0159ed o\u010dima, m\u011bn\u00ed se s v\u00e1mi i t\u00e9mata k psan\u00ed. Kdo v\u00ed, jestli se je\u0161t\u011b vr\u00e1t\u00edm k p\u016fvodn\u00edm draft\u016fm. Chu\u0165 a n\u00e1pady na tvo\u0159en\u00ed se mi v\u0161ak nem\u011bn\u00ed. A proto\u017ee jsi, m\u00e1 mil\u00e1, chronick\u00fd no\u010dn\u00ed vst\u00e1va\u010d, u\u017e jsem Tvou zpr\u00e1vu i j\u00e1 kone\u010dn\u011b pochopila, jako\u017ee to nen\u00ed jen n\u011bjak\u00e1 aktu\u00e1ln\u00ed f\u00e1ze. Copak Ty, Ty si to je\u0161t\u011b dosp\u00ed\u0161 p\u0159es den. J\u00e1 to bu\u010f mus\u00edm p\u0159e\u010dkat nebo nep\u0159e\u010dkat. Vol\u00edm prvn\u00ed mo\u017enost, a tak hled\u00e1m zp\u016fsob, jak n\u00e1s v tomhle skloubit navzdory i s tou stra\u0161livou \u00fanavou. Budu Ti tedy v t\u011bch chvilk\u00e1ch po noc\u00edch vypr\u00e1v\u011bt. Mus\u00edm se Tv\u00e9mu rytmu p\u0159izp\u016fsobit a tak z toho ud\u011bl\u00e1m p\u0159ednost. Dal\u0161\u00ed zdej\u0161\u00ed odstavce tak budou nejsp\u00ed\u0161 vznikat v no\u010dn\u00edch hodin\u00e1ch, po kr\u00e1tk\u00fdch intervalech. Zat\u00edm se to r\u00fdsuje minim\u00e1ln\u011b na rom\u00e1n s otev\u0159en\u00fdm koncem. Teda jestli m\u016fj unaven\u00fd mozek udr\u017e\u00ed pointu&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Znova se bud\u00ed\u0161. Vst\u00e1v\u00e1m. Us\u00edn\u00e1\u0161. Nesp\u00edm. Moje mil\u00e1 mal\u00e1.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":392,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3,9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-380","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-orodicich","category-ze-zivota"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/380","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=380"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/380\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":718,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/380\/revisions\/718"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/392"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=380"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=380"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jsituspravne.cz\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=380"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}